Shine is not feeling well ):

Close to heart,
It always feel so great to have them around :D

Hello folks.

Wondering why shine haven't been blogging for a week?
Mm. I'll tell you if you say ' i miss you lahhhhhhh ' (Whatever. That's so lame.)
Okay. The reason is because i've started working. (Mix sad and happy face)
My working schedule suck. It's like 11 hours, daily? And the pay is sooooo less?
My working place is oh-so-very-hot. I really hate that ' Customer is always right '
However, i've got a humorous,strict,very-fuck-up but still very nice boss, wonderful colleagues(sofia's not included! She's so mean x: tsk), and some customers are really niceeeeeeeeeee!
Ok! Stop this work thing.

I forgot when E&N came to look for me.

Ha. Copied this from N's blog.


Did i mention i went to zouk on the 22nd?
No? Okay, i went. Very crowded. Still worth it. Because DoubleK & K were there(:
Secret plan isn't carried out because i didn't get a chance to talk to him. *Pouts*
After party ended.

): & i fell down that day.

Christmas eve this year is fun though not as fun as i expected.
Eve was with Gary and Co. Caught the movie Ip Man * 5 stars *

By the time the movie ended it was like 2 plus ? Merry Christmas (:
Christmas dawn was spent with K. They told me i was really noisy with it.
I guess most of the people were knocked down (: Soon with it again :D

Working on 25th.(Sad face) Sofia's bad.I think she got boob fetish. !$@%#&*
Don't ask me why. You should try her.
Gary and co had steamboat w/o me ): how sad.
They came over to my work place (: Fetched me off yo!
(: Esplanade thereafter. Weren't feeling well. Thus, left early.

Today.
Mom's bringing little cousins and me out for dinner (:
But before that i'll be meeting Angeline first. Pictures, hopefully.
LoveLove.

Another 8 hours to go ):
Don't worry. We'll be there.

I deleted the previous post.
Because i think if i could forgive him, i should forgive her.
Argh. I'm not playing great. I just feel that i shouldn't make a big fuss outta it.

I got a sudden kick-on.
That plan had been there for like 3 weeks already my dear girls!
If it's tempting me again, i might just play it solo you know!
Fighter Ilene should know what i mean, right luv?

Ah. Don't think about it anymore.
I need to wake up early tomorrow for k's court hearing
&i'm starting work tomorrow. First day yo!
Goodnight folks :]

Crayon Shino-look-alike-Kaden.
I won't be late tomorrow. I'll be there on the dot.

Last afternoon.
Kaden , Geney, Zw , Bai came to Amk (:

Went to visit Dearest KC ): Poor him.
Don't dream about 2 or 4 wheels first. Recover soon!

Pictures with Bai when they were out Smoking.

- Waited for Kelv to prepare, Zw&Gene to change, Brell to off work.
Then headed to Play.

Last night at Play was _|_

Firstly, the queue was like shit. I queued for an hour, i guess? (Approx)
Young kids got no manners. They cut MY queue. Okay, fine with it.
Underage parties are like this ~ Esp, with no age boundary? I feel so cheated by XJ(angryface)
I nearly suffocate inside. Like there're 645 people squeezing inside. It's so crowded!

Secondly, my 'secret plan' failed.(pouts) I heard he got whacked outside club? No?
He looks fine to me. He still can laugh at some Teck-moves idiots and smile widely(:
So i reckon, he whacked people instead of being whack. Heh!
It's okay :] i can still carry out my plan the next time i bump into him :)


Thirdly, things don't seem right after club. Bingo! You're right!
Fights are rife after Underage parties. Not fights, actually. Arguements?
Who'd wanna fight when some of the people fled after seeing QX drove pass,
leaving them behind to wipe their asses? Gangsters. Mm. (Smirk)

I should stop complaining. I paid for the tickets, i ask for it!
): I shouldn't have waste such money. Aww. Although it's only 16sgd, i feel the pinch.
Shh. Stop here stop here. I won't stop if i continue. Toodles.

In place, into position, as one.

Home club was alright(1st time i find it not boring)
K's still as cool as before except for his baggy weird pants. Looks really weird x:
His moves still as good as it is. Woah! (I can't take my eyes of him when he does that lah!)
I sound like a desperate girl. Ok, I'm not!

I'll tell you guys my secret plans.

i must get to see his phone someday, to see if the heart is still beside my contact.
HAHAHAHA! Oh & see if my picture w him is still being stored. So i can bluetooth it over.
oh manxzs. I'm so excited! i want to see him tonight at play!(what if i'm not going/he's not there?)

I'm running late.
Meeting Geny and Bai at amk before meeting up Kaden :)
I must take many many pictures with him todayyyyyyyy!
:) Ciaaooooos!

3 more days,
been really long. Misses.

I talked to a meow last night.
It listened as i talked. It seems to understand though it didn't respond.(Self-claim)
Whatever. At least it'll keep mum about it.

Home club later on?
Waiting for fighter Ilene and Snoring Brell's confirmation.

Call me - Smartieeeee!

I left my wallet and my phone with Xinyu.
I wished her safe journey, enjoyable stay and blew flying kisses.
She's taking a morning flight this morning to Penang.
Will only be back after a weeeeeeeek! :/

How smart :D! There were several solution to it.
1st - call my daddy, fetch me over to Sims drive.(he says he's not free)
2nd - wait for her to come back (obviously not a good one)
3rd - pass it to brock when she's over at airport. He's working there anyway.

All of it weren't any good solution because i find it really troublesome.
Anyway, my stuffs are with Brock now. Can just collect it later when we meet him later.

Time check: 6.55pm

Kelvin & Me are still over at brell's crib.
Both are still sleeping. Kelv slept for idk how long already. It seems that he can't get enough of sleep, though. Brell snoring awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Heh :D I think i'm gonna squeeze between them later to make myself comfy, they won't feel comfortable. Good way to wake them up!

YAY! Visiting dearest KC later on :)!

07'
Dreams were meant for sleeping.

Last night was _____. (I've got poor vocabs.)(You fill in for me)

1st, permission denied to admission of ex Gracehaven residents.
Strictly to people who holds invitation cards.
Reason was because ex residents made troubles last year during thanks giving.
(Shows frustrated-and-sad- face)

2nd, It was already tiring enough to be running to and fro.
An alien texted me. Using lingo languages. 5-7 alike messages from same number.
Usually these won't get on my nerves but because it was yesterday,
those messages made me scream at public. & my name don't come with double-I (:

3rd, My heart spring out upon hearing kc met up with an accident.
'Quite serious' over the phone KL said. Shan't elaborate more on this.
): ): ): Speedy recovery ok ? <3

Today ain't any better. So i hope no one comes pissed me off.
I'll scream shout whack and bite anyone who does that. I'm serious.
I think i should drink some cococococococonut to keep my cool.

Oh. Did i mention that bestie, gary, went to Tokyo?
He'll only be back after a week, i guess? Today is the 2nd/3rd day.
& i'm missing him alreadyyyyyyyyyy ): Enjoy yourself there ok?
<3

Not forgetting you YCH,
Sis, i really miss you like truckloads.
There's so much i wanna talk to you about,
so much so much.
I'm sorry. It's neglection again):
I'll make it up to you on your next book out k?
& i promise it'll be a dress-up outing with you.
Not with the bad attitude shirt again(:
Love you love you!

Toodles.

Your eyes, the last thing that holds no lies.

A sentence goes '算了啦!D 不适合你 '
See, he doesn't even know a shit about us.
He got no idea how it was like when you were around.
&how i felt when he pushes the words right through my heart(poke poke sound)
However, Junior was bingo with this sentence.

It should be a ' say-no-to-clinging-onto-you ' thing-y?
How stupid could i've been this few months. Thinking that you may come back some day.
When i knew it was a new life for you when you wanted a break away.

It was a tough fight with tears, faking a smile.
Kelvin must be wondering why am i asking so much when he's holding my hand.
Sorry bro, the tight grip must have hurt your weeny fingers.

Com'on perk it up.
You know you can do it, shine.
You don't have to cry over one who changed. Not over you.
You have to accept the fact that he moved on and you need to.
You down with fever now, you should stop racking your brain.
Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I don't know what am i typing now. I just feel like ranting.
I don't feel right. I feel left right center front and back. Like roller coaster.
No one should come comfort me lest i cry out loud. &I mean really L O U D.
Shut up. Stop cursing. You only got yourself to blame for losing this love.

This post is getting lengthy and senseless.
Though I still feel bit of tiny uneasy feeling at the pit of somewhere in my body,
I should stop. Toodles to all.

(Smile widely)

Although i really don't feel like having a job in bugis..
But i've got an interview at Bugis Street later on.(Smile)
Because i finally got a call for an interview after the previous one which i screwed!

&I got a 'hwee-lingg' that things are going to be fine.
As in, my clique, you see. They care about each other but lack of communication.
(: I sooooooooo veryyyyy wannnnnnna hang out with the usual 10-12 people!(palm together, excited)

Although mom still pissed me off when i woke up this afternoon.
I still feel happpppy today. I'll rambat any who spoils my day (: (: (: !

Puff-A-Fish.

First thing first,
I just screamed some vulgarities straight to my mom's face.
She's unhappy, so am i. (Angry)

I wonder why some shops are posting up notices looking for retail assistant
when they don't even call. Some don't put down notices even after they had enough employees.
Seriously, i find it irritating and i feel that i've got no patience in job hunting.
I just screwed one interview few days back. Fuck.
But, I really need a job badly.


): ): ): ): ):

Me abhor internal conflicts.
Listen and do nothing, group splitting into two, Making painful decision,
quarrels and arguments, grumbles and complaints, leaving people in dillema.
Feel so helpless, don't you?

Shine no like things turning out thizzzzz way manxzssssss!

Teach me how and what to do,
I want the pieces back together )':

Happy 17th birthday Kenneth.C (:

White Room party sucked.

How can i possibly save money when i'm wasting much more than
my everyday allowance?(Sad face) Wthf!

Shine, Learn to be thrifty!

You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it! You can do it!

I miss your little ' i love yous '

As I look back,
I think about the times we had together.
The times we laughed & cried
These memories pain me(close eyes)
Yet, despite the tears that fall,
these are times we shared together.
): I can't let it go easily.

I still remember when I was down and out,(Sad face)
you brought me back to the top.
You were always there. (Grin widely)

We haven't been in contacts for long.
However, i still want you to know that
no matter how far we're distant apart,
when you need someone there,
i'm just 8 digits away(:
(I don't know if you'll ever come by this page.)
<3 DTJK (Insert plenty of love)

{XOXO}

Did i react too harshly towards people last night?
People like the spammers and people who came over to my void deck
to visit me ): (Jos, Amanda, YT)
I wasn't in the right mood last night ): Thus, resulting to fiery attitude.
My apologies ):

Wed Night :)

Met up with ENAW and went for an interview at Equator.
Rang up Angela, made her come to town to do some shopping with me.
Okay, shopping is not done whenever there are foods around.

Dinned at Shodoku - Street Of Japan.
As well as to visit our lovely, Em (: I miss her truckloads.

While waiting for our food yo!

This lovely waitress, Em , served us.

I know you people must be drooling now.

People, you should try the food here yo! Yummy :)
It's located at Heeren basement 1 (:

Thereafter, Angela&Me went to get tickets for Beverly Hills. ( 4/5)
(: Waited for Em to end work. Bumped into Pearline and Tiffany.
Smiles (:


& these few Gloria Jeans Boyyyyyys.

After taking this picture, we're only left with 10 mins to reach amk so that we can catch our movie in time. Cool. Money saving plan failed ): Cabbed back to amk.
After movie, went over to Haji Karim?
Prataaaaaa(: Gary Keene and KC came over to find us (:

Lastly....

I want an outing with Em and Co again.
Real soon okay? Loveeeeee

I wish for a perfect body in skimpy outfits.

Why'd people want to compare ugly people with pretty people?
Is it because the pretty people would look more outstanding?
):

Consistently, i wonder if those people who started all the taunting
spared a thought for people like me - Fat&Ugly.

I guess they're just being ignorance. How sad ):

I'm sure they never had to carry a big bulging tummy to places they go
- To find plus sized apparels so that it could fit onto their body
- To be put down because you're the fattest among all
- To face situations like the girls go for some spin and you can't
because the boys only love pretty baby.
- To smile over mean jokes about you even when you find it hurting
- To go with the flow because you're think you're one of them.
- To dance(really love to dance)but others are giggling behind you(Look like an elephant)
- To screw those motherfuckers because you can't take what they're saying about your fats.

Have you ever went through these before you start making a joke out of me?

(points to heart) It hurts alot.

Zouk was like a cool last night.
Although with only 4 girls. (Brell Pris Enaw & Idk-the-name)
Tickets were from my cute a-hole, J.Nic (:

I think guys should be envy of me yo!
Because i get the hottest girls in club. Some were strangers.
&even grinded on me. How hawt!
So.. you see. I got what the guys wanted (:

Anyway, i need a job like ASAP!
I'm using up all my money alreadyyyyyyy ):
Piggy is shrinking ): I need to feed it up.

After all that had happened,

I still can't get over you.

14 Nov 2007

Still so young, so naive.

Hi Shine,
What can you do except crying?
Weakling. (Laugh at how stupid shine can be)

Re-act.