Daunted.
Emotionally down.
It may be caused by
menstruation.
I always
hated this monthly thing.
Before i start, i need to tell you that
this post will be lengthy.
You can choose not to read,
really.
If i could give a change in life, i would change
me.
Because i'm so
fucking ugly. I want to be
slim &
pretty!
Wear
trendy &
sexy outfit. & Get the attention i deserve.
If prayers could be answered, i'd ask for
money.
Because
money do wonders.
(I'll use it to invest in slimming center. Or maybe, liposuction.
I'll buy a new wardrobe because a truck of new apparels
are moving into it. Use $2 to dump it on those fuck faces who looked down on me.
Eat onions, garlic and smelly food to create foul breath so that i can blow it straight
to fuck' faces whom teased me, embarrassed me. A part of the money, i'll
use it for charity(maybe 100? haha) The rest will be savings (: How nice? )Don't use '
don't think so much ' on me.
This sentence will only help in E X P A N Ding my wound.
& it's causing
much more hurt than I'm feeling right now.
Because this sentence is so
untruePeople say this only with
closed up heart.
They
shut their ears and
play their own music in heart,
they can't hear what they're saying.
Probably, just words they carry and
it has no meaning in it.
They use their
empty soul to say out this sentence so as to make me feel better.
Thank You. But i don't need it.
Deep down, we know,
this is real.
What I'm thinking about is the
truth which may hurt now,
somehow in the future, I'll get
immune to what reality has for me.
I'll be able to handle
awful negative thoughts which are runningthrough every veins in my body, passing through blood to get me downkneeling on floor, crying, begging to be saved.
Because I've
learnt to let go,
move on and these will only make me
grow strong in life.Pathetically, if you know i'm just using words to comfort myself.
I'm not x1000000 fine.
I need a leaning shoulder to cry on.